By the looks of it, this lunar phase is going to pretty epic and filled with many opportunities to grow, and step up to the next level in our quests in self love, and personal transformation.
When I embarked on my quest to find and fall in love with my true self I thought the spiritual jourbet was meant to be a gentle, easy transition from where I was to where I wanted to be. Alternatively, I had hoped that I would have a massive spiritual awakening much like the one Eckhart Tolle describes having, where he "fell" into the Great Nothingness after a night of being chronically suicidal, and spent the next few months living on benches talking about his experience.
Neither happened for me, and yet after almost 7 years of seeking change, I have finally come to a place where I feel my greatest growth is still to come.
The quest so far has been hard, and fraught with "peaks and valleys", wins and losses. It has been the most challenging thing I've done, but if I had stayed the same as I was I probably would have not been living today. So desolate and empty was my existence, I could see no point and no way to go.
As challenging as the next few weeks are probably going to be, I absolutely know I have the tools with which to get through them:
• breathing deeply
• talking to my support network
• having fun (singing, dancing, yoga, walking in nature, watching a fab film etc)
• exercising - yoga, walking, dancing (see how some of them overlap?)
• drinking plenty of water
• cutting processes sugar intake and eating plenty of green veg, and high protein foods
All these simple things, and more will go a long way to helping me navigate the path as changes happen in and around me.
I pray to be able to support myself and those in my life who will be affected by them. I pray that I stay open to dialogue, communication and tears. I pray that I can be loving, kind and gentle to myself and others. I pray that I have such faith in God, that I genuinely don't worry about the outcomes. Because when I worry I put "handcuffs on God."
I've put in a lot of good, solid hard work over the last few years And am more then ready to start "reaping the harvest" of the monumental transformations I've gone through. I've made many mistakes, I may not have been a particularly nice person at times. But the spiritual quest doesn't always mean we are nice, airy fairy people. Being spiritual is about accepting all of ourselves. Not just those aspects that will please others, and make them happy. It's not about stuffing down our emotions (with sugar, busyness or other methods of self medication) and pretending we're fine when we are not, but it's also not about acting in ways that hurt others just becaue we are hurting.
It's about being authentic and real. Accepting our dark and light. Loving ourselves through the hard times. Playing and basking through the good.
All is well, and all will be well, even if you can't see how right now. If, like me, you are scared and don't know how things are going to improve. Even if it seems like there is no way out of the struggle and fear right now. Keep faith that there is a benevolent power in the universe - whether you call it Source energy, Allah, nature, or God - that you are an inseperable part of, and loves you more than you could even comprehend. An energy that simply, as the perfect parent wants to see you happy, thriving and living a life greater than even your wildest dreams.
So keep breathing, keep praying and keep up the good work because you are awesome.
Today, I'll be relaxing and spending time in peace and silence for a while. I'll be fasting (eating just a couple of oranges) until midday, to get my body back on track, spending time meditating and listening to God, and definitely doing a good yoga flow for an hour or so.
I had been praying to got to a friends yoga retreat in Morocco straight from the Youth Peace Federation training workshop in Kloten, Sweden I returned from yesterday and was praying for a miracle to make it happen. Somewhere I mis-manifested and it hasn't happened. So I'll be letting go of the disappointment and small sadness I feel today. Going to accept that I didn't choose to complete a part of my quest (although I don't believe we have to earn our miracles, I do believe things flow in a way that means that when we do or don't do one micro action, it affects an outcome) that would have led to me going. Accepting it's ok to be disappointed, but it's not ok to beat myself up about not doing something perfectly. I have a feeling it had something to do with the food I are while away.
Today is a day of gentle acceptance methinks. It's all good. More opportunities are on the way. i refuse to wallow in FOMO! (Fear Of Missed Opportunities).
Rebekah Shaman ended this months Lunascope (well worth subscribing to) with the words of Haile Selassie:
“We must become bigger than we have been: more courageous, greater in spirit, larger in outlook. We must become members of a new race, overcoming petty prejudice, owing our ultimate allegiance not to nations but to our fellow men within the human community."
Namaste 🙏
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